Question of my life February 16, 2009
Posted by Gabe in Ponderings.Tags: Whispers
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Another thought I had was the question of my life.
I was taking a walk, expecting some form of conversation with God. I prayed I would be able to encounter Him at the top of the hill. Alas I didn’t manage to reach the hill in time. As I turned back and started walking, I thought to myself, “What would I want to ask God if I met Him?”
It didn’t take me long to realise the question I would want to ask Him was,
“Do You still take delight in me?”
That was one question I would like to hear from Him. I would want to hear once more that He takes delight in my heart. I want so much to hear those words again.
Why did I ask that question?…. I contemplated whether that question defined my life. Does it relate to how I perceive my identity?
As I pondered longer, the song came up to play: Definition of me by Steven Curtis Chapman.
Here come those words again
I run for cover, I’m dodging them.
But still they seem to find their way
around my best defense
Here come those little thoughts
of all I ought to be but I’m not
I try talking to myself
but I’m still not convinced
I’m good, I’m bad, I’m everything in between oh
I’m this, I’m that, but really God we both know
It is Your love that defines me
and Your love that reminds me
it’s not what I do
This life I live, You have given
and in You I am hidden
This is what I know is true
that the definition of me is You
This ladder never ends
I climb up then we slide down again
Still they say you’ve not arrived
until you reach the top
But Your kingdom’s upside down
it is the servant who wears the crown
First is last and last is first
and You’re all that I’m not
‘Cause I’m weak, You’re strong, I’m empty ‘til You fill me
I sing this song to keep myself remembering
It is Your love that defines me
and Your love that reminds me
it’s not what I do
This life I live, You have given
and in You I am hidden
This is what I know is true
that the definition of me is You
I have been made by You
I have been saved by You
All that I am is all because of You
I’m weak, You’re strong, I’m empty but You fill me
I’m singing this song to keep myself remembering
It is Your love that defines
and Your love that reminds me
it’s not what I do
This life I live You have given
and in You, I am hidden
This is what I know is true
that the definition of me is You
I was struggling with this today and before I read your blog, I thought about the lyrics of this song. Why am I letting the opinions of people to define who I am instead of God? I guess sometimes it’s easier to do that coz people are tangible whilst God speaks in whispers and often we need to pay attention in order to hear Him. And yet His definition is the true definition.
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I dont think that it is wrong to want God to delight in you.
I dont think it is wrong for it to define your life.
It’s great to live a life that God delights in…
But be sure not to let complacency or pride take over!
p/s: Great new blog!
=)
I never said it was wrong. :p