Tag Archive: Whispers

Something is off…


Something is definitely off.. I can feel it. Or rather I can’t feel it.

I’m feeling stressed most times… blood pressure has been fluctuating. I’m losing my edge easily. Especially with my loved ones. For that I would like to apologise to those who are reading my blogs. Its been a slow eroding of my patience. I’m seeing it in my thoughts….

I could blame it on the stress. I could blame it on countless things and people. But in the quietness of the night, I realise I can only blame myself. My lack of fellowship with God. My mind and focus on the things of this world. My apparent lack of heart in the Word. I’m realising the effects…

Pray against the devil’s scheme. Pray against thoughtless words. Pray against unnecessary pressure from work, family and friends. Pray against worldliness. Pray against self-centredness. Pray against worthless counsels. Pray against death.

Pray it would not be too late. Pray for mercy. Pray for peace. Pray for love. Pray for guidance. 


The Last Fragment…

You never change. You’re the only constant. You will remain after the day is gone and all the things of earth have passed. All that I would have is You in the end. And that would be more than enough, all satisfying.


Remember, Repent, Revert

“To the angel of the church in Ephesus write:

     These are the words of him who holds the seven stars in his right hand and walks among the seven golden lampstands: I know your deeds, your hard work and your perseverance. I know that you cannot tolerate wicked men, that you have tested those who claim to be apostles but are not, and have found them false. You have persevered and have endured hardships for my name, and have not grown weary.

     Yet I hold this against you: You have forsaken your first love. Remember the height from which you have fallen! Repent and do the things you did at first. If you do not repent, I will come to you and remove your lampstand from its place. But you have this in your favor: You hate the practice of the Nicolaitans, which I also hate.

     He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says to the churches. To him who overcomes, I will give the right to eat from the tree of life, which is in the paradise of God.

Journey of faith … thus far.

Like what I’ve shared with Ellie on my journey of faith.. Its been ups and downs.. mostly downs but God is good. He has never forsake me or left me.

Its not been smooth sailing this phase of my life. At this stage where the phrase “the world is your oyster” suits appropriately, its a struggle to fight against the “me-first” self-centred part of me and also the many many temptations in the world. I’ve been struggling with the flesh part of me for the past year plus now and I’ve lost much of my sensitivity towards God.

Sometimes I wonder if it is part and parcel of the journey of faith when we begin to place our trust more on non-tangible things than the tangible things like emotions, stirrings… hmm.. one thing is for sure, God’s word is always readily available for us.

Last night, my spirit was disturbed, my heart was heavy and I asked God in not so many words, “How do I come back to You? Guide me along Your path once again. How can I once again attain Your wisdom in the things of life”. God answered in Proverbs 1 & 2.

The proverbs of Solomon, son of David, king of Israel:

To know wisdom and instruction, to understand words of insight, to receive instruction in wise dealing, in righteousnessm justice and equity; to give prudence to the simple, knowledge and discretion to the youth – Let the wise hear and increase in learning, and the one who understands obtain guidance, to understand a proverb and a saying, the words of the wise and their riddles. The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge; fools despise wisdom and instruction. ~ Proverbs 1:1-7

My son, if you receive my words and treasure up my commandments with you, making your ear attentive to wisdom and inclining your heart to understanding; yes, if you call out for insight and raise your voice for understanding, if you seek it like silver and search for it as for hidden treasures, then you will understand the fear of the Lord and find the knowledge of God. For the Lord gives wisdom; from His mouth come knowledge and understanding; He stores up sound wisdom for the upright; He is a shield to those who walk in integrity, guarding the paths of justice and watching over the way of his saints. Then you will understand righteousness and justice and equity, every good path; for wisdom will come into your heart, and knowledge will be pleasant to your soul; discretion will watch over you, understanding will guard you, delivering you from the way of evil, from men of perverted speech, who forsake the paths of uprightness to walk in the ways of darkness, who rejoice in doing evil and delight in the perverseness of evil, men who paths are crooked, and who are devious in their ways. So you will be delivered from the forbidden woman, from the adulteress with her smooth words, who forsakes the companion of her youth and forgets the covenant of her God; for her house sinks down to death, and her paths to the departed; none who go to her come back, nor do they regain the paths of life. So you will walk in the way of the good and keep to the paths of righteous. For the upright will inhabit the land, and those with integrity will remain in it, but the wicked will be cut off from the land, and the treacherous will be rooted out of it. ~ Proverbs 2.

I pray all of us will have the fear of God in us whether be it progressively or even more. I pray we will receive His Words and bind them to our heart and mind always.

Life’s reflection

“Faith is to believe what you do not see; the reward of faith is to see what you believe.” ~ St. Augustus.

Life is fleeting and we are all but a breath in the stream of life. Much like a wisp or the morning dew, a moment and the next it is no more. In the background of the great machines of world and the eternally expanding  universe, we seem so small. However, if we are to see life as a weaver’s handiwork, with many strands criss-crossing over one another, we would see that we are all connected to form the fabric that spans all over the world. Sounds a little philosophical.

As I have recently entered into another marker in life, I pondered on the last 30 years of my life. The words of St. Augustus brings many a thanksgiving into my heart. Even my time of devotion reminds me to sing praise to God.

There are many things of which I’m thankful to God for the past 30 years. Thinking back – the time in university where I grew, the friendships I’ve made. The time of stepping into the working world, to see God’s favor, wisdom and strength manifesting in my own life. Achievements in my career, being the among the youngest in my workplace to be recognized. Connecting with young vibrant and colourful lives, being part of their lives and having the privilege of being called a big brother. Building many bridges with people of different age, perspectives and culture. Meeting this wonderful gal I am to spend the rest of my life with, growing to love her even more with the passing of time. And now stepping to build a home with her. Holding hands to take the next step forward of making a family.

I believe the greatest achievement I have to show today for my past 30 years is the bonds that have been made with different people and different lives. Bonds that lasts even longer than material things or recognition or any other achievements. There will be some that may fade in the coures of time but its lingering touch would be forever  imprinted into my life. And there are some bonds that will stand the test of time and space. Those I am forever grateful to be part of.

I see, Lord. I see faith. I look forward to see more of You in life and in the lives of people around me. Its been a great ride thus far… whats next? 🙂

Be magnified in my life.

            I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener. He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes a so that it will be even more fruitful. You are already clean because of the word I have spoken to you. Remain in me, and I will remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me.

            I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. If anyone does not remain in me, he is like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned. If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you. This is to my Father’s glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples.

            As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love. If you obey my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have obeyed my Father’s commands and remain in his love. I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete. My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends. You are my friends if you do what I command. I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master’s business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you. You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you to go and bear fruit—fruit that will last. Then the Father will give you whatever you ask in my name. This is my command: Love each other. ~ John 15:1-17

For the love of Money…

Root of all evil … I’m beginning to see how destructive and how dangerous the love of money can be. Lives lost… relationships broken… hearts pierced… family shattered. How much are those worth? To have all the riches in the world but to have lost the true riches of life.

A  few weapons the Word of God has given us to fight this fight of our inner hearts.

  • Godliness with contentment
  • Flee from it and pursue
    • righteousness
    • godliness
    • faith
    • love
    • endurance
    • gentleness 
  • Fight the good fight
  • Hope in God
  • Rich in good deeds
  • Generosity

To an extent, all of us struggle with its grip. Money – makes the world turn – so the saying goes. Not true. Nevertheless it is directly and indirectly involved in every aspect of our lives. Even Jesus’ words, much on finances and money.

Take heed and great caution, fellow traveller. Its a long dark road and we’re in the enemy’s territory. Small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it. (Matt 7:13-14). Hold on tight to God’s leading and focus on the light ahead.

1 Timothy 6:3-19

            If anyone teaches false doctrines and does not agree to the sound instruction of our Lord Jesus Christ and to godly teaching, he is conceited and understands nothing. He has an unhealthy interest in controversies and quarrels about words that result in envy, strife, malicious talk, evil suspicions and constant friction between men of corrupt mind, who have been robbed of the truth and who think that godliness is a means to financial gain.

            But godliness with contentment is great gain. For we brought nothing into the world, and we can take nothing out of it. But if we have food and clothing, we will be content with that. People who want to get rich fall into temptation and a trap and into many foolish and harmful desires that plunge men into ruin and destruction.

For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil. Some people, eager for money, have wandered from the faith and pierced themselves with many griefs.

            But you, man of God, flee from all this, and pursue righteousness, godliness, faith, love, endurance and gentleness. Fight the good fight of the faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called when you made your good confession in the presence of many witnesses. In the sight of God, who gives life to everything, and of Christ Jesus, who while testifying before Pontius Pilate made the good confession, I charge you to keep this command without spot or blame until the appearing of our Lord Jesus Christ, which God will bring about in his own time—God, the blessed and only Ruler, the King of kings and Lord of lords, who alone is immortal and who lives in unapproachable light, whom no one has seen or can see. To him be honor and might forever. Amen.

            Command those who are rich in this present world not to be arrogant nor to put their hope in wealth, which is so uncertain, but to put their hope in God, who richly provides us with everything for our enjoyment. Command them to do good, to be rich in good deeds, and to be generous and willing to share. In this way they will lay up treasure for themselves as a firm foundation for the coming age, so that they may take hold of the life that is truly life.

Love ~ Jaeson Ma

Too good… too true… too clear .. not to post.  🙂

Whispers in a noisy world….. can you hear?

Holding hands in the dark…

Often God speaks to me through music when my heart is too hardened for words… The melody, tunes and rhythm carries Your words into my heart. Through the opening of my heart’s doors, Your tears and joy pours in. Little by little, the dark clouds dissipates. There are times when fear creeps in that my hand might lose Yours in the darkness. Yet knowing Your hold is firm and everlasting, my heart finds the rock on which to hold on to.

Through the dark clouds of my life, I know Your hands holds mine. Though I cannot see, though I may not hear, I know of your touch in my life. I remember.

By His wounds, we are healed… The mind’s vision of Your suffering alone is enough to make our hearts bow in adoration and love towards You.

<Warning! – Contains violent scenes of crucifixion>

Isaiah 53

Who has believed our message and to whom has the arm of the LORD been revealed?

He grew up before him like a tender shoot, and like a root out of dry ground.

He had no beauty or majesty to attract us to him, nothing in his appearance that we should desire him.

He was despised and rejected by men, a man of sorrows, and familiar with suffering.

Like one from whom men hide their faces he was despised, and we esteemed him not.

Surely he took up our infirmities and carried our sorrows, yet we considered him stricken by God, smitten by him, and afflicted.

But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was upon him, and by his wounds we are healed.

We all, like sheep, have gone astray, each of us has turned to his own way; and the LORD has laid on him the iniquity of us all.

He was oppressed and afflicted, yet he did not open his mouth; he was led like a lamb to the slaughter, and as a sheep before her shearers is silent, so he did not open his mouth.

By oppression and judgment he was taken away.

And who can speak of his descendants?

For he was cut off from the land of the living; for the transgression of my people he was stricken. He was assigned a grave with the wicked, and with the rich in his death, though he had done no violence, nor was any deceit in his mouth.

Yet it was the LORD’s will to crush him and cause him to suffer, and though the LORD makes his life a guilt offering, he will see his offspring and prolong his days, and the will of the LORD will prosper in his hand.

After the suffering of his soul, he will see the light of life and be satisfied; by his knowledge my righteous servant will justify many, and he will bear their iniquities.

Therefore I will give him a portion among the great, and he will divide the spoils with the strong, because he poured out his life unto death, and was numbered with the transgressors.

For he bore the sin of many, and made intercession for the transgressors.

Be strong and courageous, because you will lead these people to inherit the land I swore to their forefathers to give them. Be strong and very courageous. Be careful to obey all the law my servant Moses gave you; do not turn from it to the right or to the left, that you may be succesful wherever you go. Do not let this Book of the Law depart from your mouth; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful. Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go” ~ Joshua 1:6-9


Just before I read this, I was playing “This is our time” …

What a day to be alive
What a time to live my life
To have a destiny and call
And see it day by day unfold
What a day to know You Lord
To live and walk within Your love
To see the wondrous things You’ve done
And know there’s greater things to come.
And we sense the wonder of it all
We feel the urgency
There’s not a day to be wasted
God help Your church, help us to see.
# This is our time, this is our day
Now’s not the time to hold back or delay
Dreams can live again
Faith and hope restored
Taste and see that the Lord is good
This is the day of salvation
A time to break free from containment
People need, people need the Lord.